Let It Come Upon You

I didn't get much sleep last night. But I woke up early and worked all day and felt great. Thought about her much of day. Feel her more strongly now. I want to do more to be close to her.

I've been feeling more and more like I need to get more disciplined. I need to make the habits of my love more driven by soul. I don't really know what all of that means. But I know that I feel something better happening inside me and I just want more of it.

I especially like the way that I'm learning to stop the diagnosing and judging of myself and others. That, by itself, has given way to much freedom.

Now, I really want to do more with my own mind, my own consciousness. I’m at the point where I’m not going to be confused by the glitter of gold, the aching hungers of gluttony and lust, the baleful fires of jealousy, anger and hate.

So I feel like I don’t want to wait any more. I feel like I want the love to come upon me. So I pray to her. Come to me. Come to me with your radiant beauty. Come to me and be in my loneliness as I will be in yours.