Touch and Play

So, this was a great weekend. All I can say about that is YEAAA!!!! I feel so much better about what I got done this weekend. Oh, I did a lot. Right now I am barely moving because of all of the physical activity I did today. Killer aerobics in the morning. Then I went to the park with the girls and it was really good. I would like to have been more active. I was a little drowsy. Eventually, I got more into it and I started being more involved. Sasha really like that. She really feels the attention. All of the other parents were so uninvolved. Kind of sad. They all just sat there. No energy. No enthusiasm.

Thoughts about balance

I have been reading some Bruce Lee. The Tao of Jeet Kune Do. It is actually a very nice little work. I really enjoy reading it. He has a lot of very meaningful things to say. It has helped get me motivated to do a lot of the things that I have been doing. I need to still loose some more weight. But I like the feel of my body right now. Between the aerobics and raquetball I'm doing OK. But I would like to intensify the morning work out. Each morning. I did not buy a jump rope. I had really wanted to do that. Perhaps tomorrow. I need to spend a few minutes thinking about what I'm going to do tomorrow. I cleaned my office today and the lab. I also put a lamp in my office. I need to start making the hut. I heard a report on the news about that. Very interesting. How we deal with our space. How we create our huts. What architecture says about who we are. We have some space. We take that space up. I don't know that I really want to use the office for studying. Perhaps I would like to eat there. A place where I could take some time to study. Part of my day should be spent with books. I do believe that. We could take some time and do it. This week needs to be a week of high efficiency. That is very important. I will be trying to get a lot done in the next ten days. So I need to focus on those things and to really produce. There is the Windows software, but there are also the issues of the security in Netscape. The things that I have been doing have felt very good. I want to get a nice letter to Wendy. A work of art. Same for Anna. I need to get that done as well.

Which Reminds Me of Her

Natalya and I have been doing quite nice together. I have really begun to enjoy her company. I suppose there have always been times when I enjoyed her company, but lately it does seem that her attitude has taken a very positive turn. I really like that. It seems so right. It seems so good. It is very positive. We made love everyday (and twice a couple of days) for a couple of weeks. It was really something. Several of the times it was very passionate. Last night we went out to dinner. No arguments and no problems. I got a haircut and I got all dressed up and I met her at the restaurant with flowers. She was so happy. We were able to hug and kiss and to really enjoy each other at dinner. Bruce Lee had talked about something called "emotional exercise" or something like that. I decided to give it a try. To really just make something happen. To deepen the sense of careing and affection that we have. That is emotional development. We also went out Friday night. Ended up having Pizza with Ted and Tonya. She said that she was very grateful to me for teaching her to love life and to want to continue to grow and develop. To understand how important that was. There is just so much to live for here. There is just so much to do. I can't just sit around and do nothing. I need to keep moving and keep growing. That is what I keep struggling with. That is what I keep trying to do with my life. To make tracks. Guerrilla learning. That's what I call it. I would like to make a montage of the wall in my office. That is what I would like to do. I would like to start adding stuff and to make it tell a story. A work of art. That's what I would like to do. But I think that I will do it in stages. Piece by piece. I will need equipment. I will need a sense of who I am. I think that a nice run tomorrow would shake loose a lot of the sleepy feelings that I am accustomed to in the morning. I will have to get that jump rope, but I don't think there should be a hurry for that. I need to take my time and build up a little ritual. A ritual of love. Perhaps that is what I would like to do.I need to keep thinking about all of these things. Because they are all very important. I need to keep it up. I need to keep focused. There are reasons for all of that. I need to keep working on it all. I need to work on all of that stuff. Work. Work. Work. Play. Play. Love. Laugh. Learn. Love. Laugh. Love. Work. Give. Serve. Work. Produce. Produce. Learn. Love. Love. Laugh. Play. Work. Serve. Work. Produce. Laugh. Learn. Love. Love. Love. Work. Play. Love. Learn. Server. Play. Kiss. Love. Help. Win. Love. Touch. Play.